It's a crazy feeling to be surrounded by people who you couldn't imagine how much fear they can inflict to you even without any effort on their part. It's sad to feel so uneasy within a community you feel so belonged to but in the presence of such people, you instantly feel like your heart is going to jump out of your chest and you feel this crumbling feeling in your stomach like the butterflies are turning wild and all. That feeling when you feel so isolated in one place, scared to move, fearing that turning on one direction may be the worst move. That feeling when you can't seem to find the people that can feel you safe anywhere near. 

I am so tired of feeling this way when you are around. And I know I shouldn't even feel this way. But then again, I am still damn scared. That moment repeating over and over again in my mind is just crazy. I know I'm being paranoid and everything but it's really how I feel. How I feel every single time. How could I even delete that part of my memory? It even keeps me wondering until when will you be able to inflict this fear on me?

That feeling. Scared, uneasy, uncomfortable, anxious. I feel so weak and helpless.

Sorry but I just felt really bad. So help me God.