There are things that happened in our life that we just want to ignore, leave behind and start over again. Most times, we decide for ourselves that we just don't want to dwell over things that hurt us and so we decide to move on. Yet sometimes, moving on is pretending to be totally fine when things aren't really that fine.

There will be times when the moments will flash back right in front of you. There will be certain things that will remind you of the pain you've felt. There will be people who will serve as a reminder of what happened, people who can be unintentionally insensitive to what is going on around. But then again, at the end of the day, it's still you who is in charge.

I really thought being okay was easy. I just decided for myself that the people who hurt me are more important than my pain. And it was the reason why I said to myself that I will be okay, that we will be okay. But there are moments when I can feel the pain just crashing right back at me, haunting me. It's no fun at all.

People say time heals. But sometimes time betrays us. We think we always have time in our hands and yet time also made us feel like we're running after it.

I know I've forgiven but I can still feel the pain. Sometimes I think my feelings are exaggerated already. I mean, why can't I just give it up and start over completely. I am starting over but I have this baggage with me which seems to be pulling me back.

We get hurt as much because the people who hurt us are those whom we least expect to hurt us so.

I am getting better. I know I will be okay, we will be okay. But it still just hurts.