A little of everything and something: life

know better

Porque la vida es así

6/15/2014 12:18:00 PM

Be thankful that we live another day or we may just fade away like memory.

Be thankful that behind every storm is surely the rainbow of hope and sunshine.

Be thankful for our mistakes because life would be so boring if we were all perfect.

Be thankful for stress so that we can be reminded to relax and put variety in our lives.

Have a thousand and one reasons to be thankful.

Here's a list of some of the things I'm thankful for.

I am thankful for mornings, it allows me to start over.

I am thankful for nights, it gives me time to rest and recover myself.

I am thankful for food, it gives me strength for the day.

I am thankful for the rain, it reminds me that not everyday is all sunshine and butterflies.

I am thankful for family, we don't get to choose them but they stick with us anyway. Every time.

I am thankful for true friends, they never judge and are always there, just there.

I am thankful for rejections, it makes me want to be better.

I am thankful for discriminations, it reminds me that we cannot please everybody.

I am thankful for God, most especially, because He is always there to listen even if everybody else seems to be uninterested. He shows mercy and showers you with blessings even if you don't deserve any.

Because nobody can make you feel better but yourself. Nobody is going to save you but yourself. You just got to live with all the shit life has to offer. You just got to accept all the rejection every one else will throw at you. Nobody controls any of them. That's why we have to be strong. Stronger even. But we cannot take away the feeling of wanting somebody to stand by our side during these crazy moments, grab our hand or give us a tight hug. When we keep on insisting we are totally fine, we are awesome and good, that person will know we are weak inside and will smile at us, give us the strength enough to go through, give us a pat at the back while giving us a hug and say, "I know you're not fine but you will be and I'm here."

Sometimes, we just have to be our own hero but most of the time, we are still hoping to be saved.

Sometimes, we must be hurt in order to grow.

Sometimes, we must fail in order to know.

Sometimes, we must lose in order to gain.

Why? Because some lessons in life are best learned through pain.

We get hurt, we fail, we lose. But we also grow, know and gain. These are all inevitable. I know the lessons I've learned through pain and it's not easy nor fun. The pain sometimes lingers and most often leaves us scars to keep for life. But I know the lessons are lessons learned and lessons to be kept. I also learned that sometimes, the best smiles and laughter are those that happened after a good cry. I've been through a lot of struggles with self-worth and self-esteem. I cannot say I fully trust myself. But I have to trust myself that one day, someday, it will all make sense and I'll be able to see that all things serve its purpose. I will never be good enough for everything but I'm surely enough for something. I am struggling and hurting and lost. But most of us have been here once or twice or thrice. Yet we cannot dwell on it for too long. We have to let go and move on. A lot of things will happen in the future that may cause me to feel the same way I'm feeling about myself. And I am hoping that when the next wave comes, I'll be bolder and braver. Knowing my worth and knowing people who knows my worth.

Never say you failed, just say you learned. Everything has its place and time. Everything can be good or bad. And when you get caught up with the bad... Cry, grieve and feel bad about it. You owe it yourself. But never forget to pick yourself up and start walking again. That's how life is and it will always be that way.

choices

Choices.

5/27/2014 10:48:00 PM

life

We just are

5/04/2014 02:37:00 AM

dreams

Help me find it

7/09/2013 10:14:00 AM

George Carlin

A wonderful message from George Carlin:

7/06/2013 08:45:00 AM

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but no t a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but le arn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER :

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

emotions

Random 01

7/03/2013 08:27:00 PM

Here I am again... On the empty page of composing this blog entry. Well, at least now I was able to write a few lines rather than staring at it and idling while thoughts come in and out of my mind.
It's amazing how the sun actually shines and sets every day. The sun actually goes through the same pattern every single day which is not very different to what we, humans, do. We do routinary work every day. But funny how we sometimes complain yet still manages to do it again the following day.

The sun, we'll never know, maybe tired of shining and setting everyday of its existence. And yet, it's still there. It's meant to be there and so it stays.

Human as we are, we get tired. It's normal. We aren't robots or some kind of battery operated thingy that can be charged whenever we get low-powered. We rest. Our capacity to be tired is usually associated with our capacity to stop and rest for a while. And sometimes, it is even more amazing that we feel so tired but we don't want to stop.

Time is something we can’t hold. It just passes by without a warning or even a pat on the shoulder. But what happens through time can be under our control. We can decide to be happy and at the same time, we can decide to feel miserable.

It’s funny how one person can realize that one’s emotion sometimes can be self-inflicted. And even all emotions can be self-inflicted. But why do we tend to inflict these to ourselves. It’s crazy how you can actually smile but chose to cry instead.

The human brain is very complex that only God, Himself, who created it, is the only one capable of reading it.

Sometimes I wish I could read minds and I know I am not the only person who wants that as well. But think about it. If we can read minds of everyone else around us, what importance will talking and feeling have? We could just trespass onto another’s mind and then what? Nothing. I wonder if we could be able to get a certain satisfaction through it.

Sometimes it’s frustrating when you seem to be mind-guessing. It’s not fun, you know. It is a headache-giver game and I happened to try it like a zillion times since my existence on planet Earth. But I figured out why some people want to be clairvoyant in some ways.

There are certain times when asking just won’t help and that you’d rather read what’s on the other person’s mind so as you know what is happening. And it would be much more convenient to read than to have it explained. At least, when you try to read, there’s no editing. You read what is there and that is it.

But somehow we do not and cannot in any way read each other’s minds and I am also happy we can’t. We are then given the responsibility over the things we think of and of our feelings and reactions. It is like Science. We tend to respond to a certain stimuli. Now it’s up to us to react on it or just shut up and let it pass.

Many times I have regret saying something. Many times I have thought of something but never acted on it. And many times I have kept what I felt inside and just let it dwell in there like a corpse that is slowly decaying. No matter how I try to figure how things work about something I regret of, I somehow thought that it was still me who made the choice and I cannot blame anybody for it. The finger is on me.
This page is getting longer and I’ve been jumping from one thought to another although I placed it all in a one big ball of thoughts.
It nice to be able to write about something you just happened to think about.  I know I don’t do this regularly or maybe I do but I keep it in a diary.

Everyday, countless “what-if’s”, “how’s” and “uncategorized thoughts” cross my mind. No wonder why my brain sometimes feels so stressed out. I’m hoping it was stressed by studying but it is not. I cannot even say my thoughts are non-sense because I believe they are not. I guess they are just scribbles in my mind waiting to be told and shared or thrown far, far away.

Memories live and we cannot choose to only keep the happy ones and bury the heartbreaking ones. They come together whether we like it or not. So, smile. No one needs a sour face in a bittersweet world.♥

- repost from my multiply blog entry 2010 

analyzing

The art of ranting

6/26/2013 10:53:00 AM

dreams

Life as we know it

11/30/2012 05:37:00 PM

Sometimes I wonder why people are the way they are. That thought includes me, of course.

People want certain specific things. People want to get them. Yet why is it when we have a slight bite of it, all we could ever want is to have more than what we have now or what we had so far.

I often sit and think of what I want to have in my life, what I've always want to happen and those that I'd be so grateful and ecstatic to be part of. I have so much in my mind that sometimes it's frustrating to think of a lot yet only a few of them can be part of what reality really is. No, I'm not being the pessimistic person here. In fact, I have always been the think-positive-everything-will-work-out-well person, if you must know. But there are just those times when I know I've been hoping for too much and getting less of what I've hoped for.

During particular times, I become so happy easily that I feel so shallow, dense, or whatever you want to call it. But there comes a point when I want things badly and I know I can never get it. It's just a little depressing.

There are moments when you wanted more that what is offered but you know you can only have enough, you can only have what is there for you to take. It's ironic when you kept wishing you can exceed your expectations when you know you could only expect as much as what is given for you to embrace and live for at the moment. Come to think of it.

I have often wandered around every corner of my crazy mind and I have imagine a lot of beautiful things to happen and share. I have so much if only I have the chance to do so. Sometimes I wish everything will just work out well and things will go with the flow just like what I wanted things to be. But things will never work the way I imagine things to be. Nothing could be as perfect as the things I have in my mind.

If I had the best in life, then there will be no time for me to look up to God and ask for blessings. If I had the perfect friends, there will be no time for me to understand and adapt the different personalities. If I had the perfect story, life could be so boring and eventually turn meaningless that I would have no time to dream big and aim high. See, life is just as perfect as it could be.

Life is funny. It just makes me smile. It makes me think and cry and laugh after a while. However, the life I have just makes me keep going. It's just the way it is. And I know I love it.

choices

Things happen

10/13/2012 09:33:00 AM