I think that no matter how hard I try and how many times I attempt, there is just no escape. The more I withdraw, the more I am drawn. And it feels like falling into my own trap. Countless times I tell myself "you've done enough". Yet countless times, I've been reminded that I still have so much more to give. How do you know if it's too much already when you've been giving for so long and yet you know, at the back of your mind and in your heart, that you'd be willing to cut yourself open just to be able to give more.
It is very uncomfortable to try and do the unusual things. Just when you are trying to let things pass and comfortably move around the other end of the room, things just start coming right back at you. Be reminded that things happen because in the first place, you have decided to make things happen. Don't make it seem like there is somebody left to blame because there really is no one left to blame.
Bad things happen. Good things happen. But still, life is good. You have to understand that you are in competition with everybody else. More importantly, you are not in competition with yourself. Things happen. It's either you drown with the bad or learn from it and just hope for the better.
“Everyone pretends to be normal and be your friend. But underneath everyone is living some other life you don’t know about. If we only had a camera on us, at all times, we could watch each other’s tapes and find out what each of us is really like.”
—James Franco
May mga panahon na di gaano natin alam kung ano dapat isipin. Dahil medyo lito tayo, sasabihin natin bigla na "Lord, bigyan mo naman ako ng sign." Pero kung minsan, alam naman talaga natin kung anong gusto natin at madalas, humihingi tayo ng mga dahilan upang mapanindigan kung ano yung gusto natin.
Minsan ba naisip mo na nakakalito yung mga signs na binibigay sa'yo ng Diyos? May mga panahon na tila ba pabago-bago ang sinasabi sa'yo? Nakakalito nga ba or sadyang ikaw lang ang nagpapalito sa sarili mo?
May mga pangyayari sa buhay na di na kailangan pang hingan ng sign galing sa Diyos. Minsan kasi masyado lang tayong bulag o nagbubulag-bulagan sa kung ano talagang nangyayari sa buhay natin. Hindi pa tayo handang tanggapin na ito na talaga. Ito na, teh! Tama na siguro. Haha.
Ok naman sana eh pero parang hindi. Pwede na sana pero hindi parin eh. Eh anong problema? Hindi ko din alam. Kaya tama na.
Laging sinasabing maiksi lang ang buhay at lumilipas ang panahon. Ganoon talaga. Matuto ka. Kung hindi ngayon, hindi bukas, baka next year? Haha. Di nga. Malay mo, di lang talaga meant to be. :)
Minsan ba naisip mo na nakakalito yung mga signs na binibigay sa'yo ng Diyos? May mga panahon na tila ba pabago-bago ang sinasabi sa'yo? Nakakalito nga ba or sadyang ikaw lang ang nagpapalito sa sarili mo?
May mga pangyayari sa buhay na di na kailangan pang hingan ng sign galing sa Diyos. Minsan kasi masyado lang tayong bulag o nagbubulag-bulagan sa kung ano talagang nangyayari sa buhay natin. Hindi pa tayo handang tanggapin na ito na talaga. Ito na, teh! Tama na siguro. Haha.
Ok naman sana eh pero parang hindi. Pwede na sana pero hindi parin eh. Eh anong problema? Hindi ko din alam. Kaya tama na.
Laging sinasabing maiksi lang ang buhay at lumilipas ang panahon. Ganoon talaga. Matuto ka. Kung hindi ngayon, hindi bukas, baka next year? Haha. Di nga. Malay mo, di lang talaga meant to be. :)
I wonder if there is ever an easy way of saying goodbye. I wonder if people will ever get better at it either. Does the fewer number of days or memories you spend with a person supposed to make goodbyes easier? Will it be easier to just leave it all behind without a word?
They say maybe things aren't just made to work out the way you wish it would. Then was it made to hurt you instead? No one can ever tell if things will work out in the first place because sometimes, you just have to take the step forward, take the risk and come what may. Is it considered a reckless move? Should you think more the next time? I don't think one could ever know if things will be worth it. And most times, it's a personal decision to make it work anyway.
They say nothing is wrong with you. What went wrong then? Situations in our lives tend to make us think sometimes. There are moments when you feel like you've done something to trigger that one thing that messed up everything. Most times, you feel like it's just meant to go wrong. It's not fair to blame yourself because there's really no one to blame.
They say you've done your part. Have I? Have you? Is that supposed to make us feel any better then? There comes a time when you just stop and then wonder if you could have done something differently. If you did, will it make a difference? You just have to do your part sometimes. Trust me, it will save you from regrets.
They say people come and go. Yeah, I know. But the memories remain even after the people have gone. This just says it all.
Then lastly, they say things will get better. And you should know better because it will always get better. You will feel better when you decide for yourself that you will feel better. No matter what they tell you, no matter how much encouragement they give you, you still get to decide.
Decide to be better and feel better. I'm not saying now, this instant. Slowly, take your time. You owe it to yourself.
They say maybe things aren't just made to work out the way you wish it would. Then was it made to hurt you instead? No one can ever tell if things will work out in the first place because sometimes, you just have to take the step forward, take the risk and come what may. Is it considered a reckless move? Should you think more the next time? I don't think one could ever know if things will be worth it. And most times, it's a personal decision to make it work anyway.
They say nothing is wrong with you. What went wrong then? Situations in our lives tend to make us think sometimes. There are moments when you feel like you've done something to trigger that one thing that messed up everything. Most times, you feel like it's just meant to go wrong. It's not fair to blame yourself because there's really no one to blame.
They say you've done your part. Have I? Have you? Is that supposed to make us feel any better then? There comes a time when you just stop and then wonder if you could have done something differently. If you did, will it make a difference? You just have to do your part sometimes. Trust me, it will save you from regrets.
They say people come and go. Yeah, I know. But the memories remain even after the people have gone. This just says it all.
Then lastly, they say things will get better. And you should know better because it will always get better. You will feel better when you decide for yourself that you will feel better. No matter what they tell you, no matter how much encouragement they give you, you still get to decide.
Decide to be better and feel better. I'm not saying now, this instant. Slowly, take your time. You owe it to yourself.
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