Birdy? Bon Iver? Ed Sheeran? Whoever. They each have a good version.

I first heard this song on the radio. I have no idea what the title is at first and the voice of the artist is not familiar too. What I did was noted the lyrics I was able to catch and tried to google it when I got home. And tada! We were introduced.

I've always wondered what this song actually means. Somehow, after how many times of listening and contemplating at the same time... I eventually came to my senses and got a little personal interpretation of this song.

Skinny love is a sad song. But it is also one of those songs that you can actually relax on. It's easy listening. 

Skinny love tells us about a certain kind of relationship. We experience difficulties in every relationship we engage in and yet we still stay. We want to keep everything in tact. As we try to hold on, we also want the other to hang on to the other end till the shaking ends. I guess it's how every love story works. I mean, no relationship is perfect. It gets even more challenging at times that we think we won't be able to make it anymore.

Unfortunately, "Skinny love" 's love story was not able to make it. It reached its downfall eventually. A dreadful end. 

I really cannot tell if how I feel about the song is exactly the same way it was written. But I hope somehow I was able to get into it.

I usually listen to this song before sleep. I don't know why. It's not that I feel sad or what. It's just relaxing. So I guess this is one of my favorites. One of the many. Makes it to the top 10 though of my long, long list.


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See, I made a lyric picture. Typography it is. Happy listening! :)

Lately, I have been exercising the limbic system of my precious brain. I have learned how to control the emotions I have and somehow figured out how to determine the should-have emotions from the must-suppress emotions. It's a bit tricky and confusing. But I know that it doesn't really matter much whatever you choose to feel. 

Someone I know once told me: "Feelings are neither right nor wrong." And I believe so. You can feel something you aren't supposed to feel and yet it stays there. It stays and you like it. Sometimes, you don't feel what you must really feel. Instead, you feel the complete opposite of the feeling. You see, feelings are confusing.

I cherish every feeling I am able to feel. I mean, not everyone is able to experience diverse emotions. Some are just plain insensitive. I don't blame them. At times I wish I could be.

I figured out a way I could get along with my feelings. I learned that if I gave in to the negative I feel, I can manage to sulk over it for a period of time. I swear it's not something highly recommended. Yet if I ignore what I feel and put it aside, it manages to get back at me in a way or another. Not recommended either.

What helps me now is to pause... close my eyes... breath... and smile.

I know it's kinda crazy but it works on me. 

I know I cannot filter what I feel. Although I wish I can. Who wouldn't want that, right? But reality is, we really can't and we should live with the thought that every now and then, we have this emotional tendencies we are not proud of.

Point is, we feel. It's human nature. But we must know when and how to act upon it. I get hurt, but it does not mean I should get a grip and keep a grudge against the person responsible for the pain.

Sometimes, we just need to live with it. Everyday, a lot of things can make us happy. A lot can make us cry too. It just takes a simple decision of whether you want to stay happy or continue crying. I know I don't want to keep on crying. So today I learned that I can say good things. I can react positively towards a sad revelation or a disappointing news. I just have to inhale the reaction until I completely absorb it. It's not easy. Takes practice.  I still lose myself into my feelings sometimes. 

I know I can always try to be happy. I have a bucket of happy memories in the right side of my brain. I know I have them. But we must also accept that sometimes, memories remain as memories and it's all they can ever be. Maybe for now, maybe it can be relived one day. Just hang on to it and cherish the feeling. It will never fade because you felt it at its best.

People say that you should picture the future -- what you want to be, where you want to be, who you want to be with, etc. It's something normal people usually do. We dream and there's nothing wrong about it. It is normal that we aspire or wish for something to be or have.

“Worry is like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do but it doesn’t get you anywhere. Worry and everything seems worthless. Pray and everything will be worth it.”

It's something I live with and remind myself and those people dear to me about. And I know it helps to be reminded. Somehow makes a difference.

I wonder where the thought goes whenever I feel the unwelcomed-tandem (worry+fear). I wonder how it pops in and in again in my mind. It's bothering.

 I have a lot of things in my mind. Maybe that's one of the reasons why I feel this way. I have special moments when I am able to clear them up and I have worse moments when they pile up one after the other. 

I was running through the thoughts in my mind when I realized that I fear of the things I do not want to happen in the future. That I think about tomorrow too much, think about the day after tomorrow too much. Scared of what tomorrow may bring. Even scared if tomorrow has something to bring. I am scared that the things I do not want to happen may visit me and stay for good. Scared that I might lose something or someone along the way of building myself.

I am scared to take a larger leap. Does it mean then that I have lesser faith?

Maybe. Cos' I have the fear to take the larger leap of my life story.

Somehow, we get so used to what we have, where we stand and everything that is part of our "good" lives. We think that we are satisfied. We do not need anything more. But sometimes, we know we do need more, something much better. We are just scared to take another step towards the better because we are scared of losing the "good" in the process.

Many of us are also blinded that there can be something more. I know I am, sometimes.

The Bible gives us 365 verses that tells us not to fear. 365 days, 365 promises by God. It will be more than enough for us to get through. Jesus said:

"Do not let your hearts be troubled. You have faith in God. Have faith also in me."  (John 14:1)

I pray now that the Lord may grant me the wisdom to know His will for me, courage to face it and the humility to accept it will all my heart. He washed my sins. He, too, shall wash away my worries and fears.

A friend texted me about a song. Let me share it too you.



I know it's not just me who worries, who fears. But with all the worries and fear I have in me, I want to convert them into something that could be of use to the others who have more worries and fears than me. I wanna be a part of somebody else's story. Maybe the story could be yours.