Some days are better than yesterdays in the very same way you're hoping that some tomorrows are better than today.

Sometimes you just feel so messed up that your brain is not functioning well. You just feel terrible. And you try to figure out why. But sometimes, the answer lies in front of you. You just don't wanna see it. Can't see through.

Crazy hormones. -.-

Done for today. There's more tomorrow. Long day and a long week to come. Cheers and happy birthday to me!

“Remember, you cannot be both young and wise. Young people who pretend to be wise to the ways of the world are mostly just cynics. Cynicism masquerades as wisdom, but it is the farthest thing from it. Because cynics don’t learn anything. Because cynicism is a self-imposed blindness, a rejection of the world because we are afraid it will hurt us or disappoint us. Cynics always say no. But saying “yes” begins things. Saying “yes” is how things grow. Saying “yes” leads to knowledge. “Yes” is for young people. So for as long as you have the strength to, say “yes’.”

-- Stephen Colbert

Today was my first major exam in my first year of trying to earn a masters degree and to my disappointment, there are a few points I realized.

1. To study means to read and read and read again. Over and over again so you can fully understand and familiarize the concepts you are reading and not reading just for the heck of it.

2. Be independent at all times and when it says exams, it also means having your own sheet of paper ready. I felt embarrassed that I was asking a sheet of paper from my classmate for my answer sheet  (although I wasn't the only one who asked). Just like the good old day. Only difference is that I was the one asking and not the one giving out some or trying to hide my pad of paper for my classmates not see and avoid them asking for some.

3. Exams are different in high school, college and in masteral. I was fully expecting an objective type of test when what was handed over to us was an essay-explain-this-and-that type of test. I know we also have this back in high school and in college but it was somehow different for me. I requires my full understanding and analyzation of the topics discussed.

For some time, I was staring at my paper and the questions. I wasn't even sure how to start answering some of the question and I wasn't even sure of those items I was able to answer first. My answers make no sense at all for me. I am not really sure if I was just too stupid to assume that memorizing names and points from the topics we have discussed will assure the passing of my exams but I was very much disappointed while I was answering the questions until the time I got home. It struck me most to realize that I was really in a different level now. I mean, I was able to get through the other educational stages. This one must be different and I should exert more effort especially when it is only scheduled once a week.

I continue to agonize about my fear of failing my very first exam until this moment. There were 7 items in the questionnaire and each was equivalent to 10pts. Well, wish me luck. I have an 89% target grade to maintain my scholarship.

It has been since the Christmas holiday season that I have observed that there was something not right about the traffic light located at JP Laurel Avenue Corner Mitsui Busan (near Yamaha). It was when we were patiently waiting for the lights to turn red and the go signal for crossing appears in the pedestrian from Victoria Plaza. Most of the people would normally cross the "long illegally acknowledged pedestrian" in between the overpass and that barricade after the NBI office. Some (even though they are using the pedestrian already) are too impatient to wait for the red light for the vehicles to appear before crossing. I'm not really sure if these people are quite suicidal but it's either they don't know such rules exist or they just don't find any logic in following them.

Going back to my story.

When the go sign to cross the street finally appeared, vehicles coming from the left side of Victoria obviously starts slowing down and went to a complete stop as the lights were already red. However, the vehicles coming from the other side of the street just kept on going and going like they wouldn't even allow people to cross the street. It was even odd to see that the light is still green while on the other side, it's already red. I mean, how could the people even cross the street if the green light is still on?

So who should give way? Can we say that the vehicle drivers are too dumb to analyze that the light on the other side is showing red and that it's time for the people to cross the street and they should stop as well? Did anybody ever realized that they should stop and prioritize the people crossing the street or maybe somebody did but made a complete fool of himself for stopping while the light is green? Or can we say that the people crossing the street have no right to cross the street during that time?

I really hope the government people in-charge with these stuff have time to check on the traffic lights around town. It confuses people about the traffic rules and worse, it can cause an accident one day.

Traffic has been part of the city already. I don't even know if we will ever come up with a solution to solve it. (Although it's not really as bad as the traffic in Manila. Thank God.) But I do think that the traffic people should monitor things and practice implementation of the rules they introduce to the public like crossing the streets using pedestrians and pedestrian over pass bridges. I mean seriously, what do you think these horizontal lines in the middle of the road are there for? Design? Or these over pass bridges are for? To be a small market place? Geez. If the 30kph (speed limit) rule is being pushed through right now, I don't think it's too late for the other rules to be revived and well-implemented as well. It's been there even before the speed limit thing anyway.