I think that no matter how hard I try and how many times I attempt, there is just no escape. The more I withdraw, the more I am drawn. And it feels like falling into my own trap. Countless times I tell myself "you've done enough". Yet countless times, I've been reminded that I still have so much more to give. How do you know if it's too much already when you've been giving for so long and yet you know, at the back of your mind and in your heart, that you'd be willing to cut yourself open just to be able to give more.

It is very uncomfortable to try and do the unusual things. Just when you are trying to let things pass and comfortably move around the other end of the room, things just start coming right back at you. Be reminded that things happen because in the first place, you have decided to make things happen. Don't make it seem like there is somebody left to blame because there really is no one left to blame.

Bad things happen. Good things happen. But still, life is good. You have to understand that you are in competition with everybody else. More importantly, you are not in competition with yourself. Things happen. It's either you drown with the bad or learn from it and just hope for the better.